Lucky - Sorry - Thank You - Goodbye

This is for you
For us
For everyone
Who feels so lucky

Especially for you
Who left, when I already asked, please stay

I feel sad,
Vulnerable,
Losing you
Most of you
Especially when we're on process to be the best version
It's like, you didn't give me, us, any chance to prove,
That I, we, can be better version of our-self

It's like you give up and run
And prefer to go somewhere else better

I know, you got something better, money, recognition, pride,
That can't be compete at current place right now
But we're still evolving, and keep evolving, to be better and keep becoming better

You never know how it feels to be in my place,
Fighting and defending your right, our right, that should be keep safe in place, just like any others do.
You don't know how it feels, when almost everyone against you, because they're afraid to change
Afraid of something new, something that they don't know,
Something that they can't digest easily, something challenging.
They won't try, so they easily walk away and say no

Rejection, discrimination, discredit, something I deal almost everyday.
You shouldn't feel it,
You don't have to be in my position
But I only need you to support me
Because I thought, we're in the same page

But you choose to left me, left our work, left us
Because you got so lucky,
You got something better, somewhere better
Is it true?
Is it better?

I also lucky you know,
Having the opportunity to grow with you
Taught me how to be a better strong person for the future
Because I know, future not always be so bright
Sometimes you have to go through the storm and thunder first
So you can see the rainbow at the end

I only have messages for you
I hope you can learn how to appreciate things better
Especially when you know, there is someone trying and fighting for the same hope and dreams like you have
I hope you know, there are some things can't be buy by money
I hope you know, there is someone who's praying for you, hoping you to open your eyes and be better
I hope you can talk, communicate, better, because we live together, almost half of your day.
Above them all,
I wish the very best for your future.

I am sorry, that our journey has to come an end just right in the middle
I am sorry, that if along the journey, you put so much weight on your shoulder that I don't know,
That I should aware of, so you can feel better, by helping you carry the weight
I am sorry if I didn't listen enough, that I didn't care enough, that you feel not appreciate enough
I am sorry if you feel all of those things.
I'm only human
But I have strong willing to be better
And I promise myself, that I will be better
Even though there is no one believe me
But I believe in myself.

I am sorry if I can't say directly this much
Because I got emotional
I caught up crying and choke up
Because you are meant something for me
You guys are so special
You, you, you, and you, everyone that around me, are so special
Have special place in my heart
I am sorry if I didn't show that much
But deep in my heart, you are so special

Thank you for being around this past couple years
Thank you for become the best version of yourself
Thank you for holding on
Thank you for believing yourself
Thank you for your hard work
You such a great human being

We will meet again in the future
Where you already become a great person
And I already become a better person

Good luck,
I am sorry
Thank you
Good bye