Happy Eid Mubarak 1437 H - My Lessons To Be Learned

Tomorrow, 14 October 2015, will be our new year for Moslem.
Happy Eid Mubarak 1437 H.

For the past one year,
I started the test to be more patience..
And more surrender myself to God.
About every aspects of my life..

Being tested by the break up with someone whom I'm with for 3.5 years..

Being tested by going out from comfort zone..and facing the hardest work environment I've ever had..

Being tested by the lost of my beloved father..

Met someone who's unexpectedly younger than the previous one but yet..greater and make me put too much hope..

Being tested by the almost never ending sick..Hospitalized twice..

Then must break up with that great person..someone whom I thought would be the last...

At this moment..
God really told me to be patience and surrender myself more than ever..

There comes a moment that I almost give up and be the very bad version of me..
But God still love me and avoid me to do that..
There is somehow, came His help..in certain way, who helped me that night.

This heart break really hurt me..
Because..at the time I feel comfort..and don't wanna try to find somebody else who might be better..
The time I start to be more patience..calm..and want to be better..
Suddenly he decided to break up and away from me...

I really can't forget the way he told me to focus on ourself to become a better person and don't need to worry..
That if we really meant to be together..
God will show His way somehow..

I..really..devastated at that time..
But, I try to get up..
And find a silver lining above it all..

I know..I also have my own personal goals..and maybe..God wants me to get back focus achieving those dreams...

There's so many "what if" questions around my mind..
What if..I failed? Who's gonna save me? Can I survive?
What if..I succeed? And when I get back, he's already gone with someone else? Then whom I run to? What is this all for?
What if..there's no one wants to be with me..because they're afraid can't keep up with me?

This very loveable man taught me...
There's no need to worry all of that...
If God has promised us one thing, He will make it come true, because He's the best promise keeper.
God has make our own way from the moment we decided to born in this world..

But what if..it is not with you?

Then I started to learn to let go...
And this pictures and words start showing..
Seems like to remind me..
That I don't need to worry..

Yes, that will be my lesson to learn from now and so on..
Until I met my destiny..
I can't do anything except pray..
That God would save you for me..
That God would make us a better person..
And always light our way to become that person..
That God make us meet again in a right time and right moment..for us to be together, forever..

You should know, that I still keep my heart for you..
Even though you might meet someone else better..or you forget me due to your business..
I still won't give up with this pray..
Until God say it so..

In this new year,
I want to get back focus with my goals in sequence..
And there is you inside..

Effort..pray..patience..and keep believing..are the key..

Happy Eid Mubarak 1437 H